Friday, 13 July 2018

I'm scared..
Of what's to come..
Of what happened..
Of what is happening ..
I'm just scared.

Monday, 9 July 2018

Baby, let’s get fucking crazy and lose track of time

We get wild, we let down
Yeah we’re foolish and scared
We run and we jump when we feel unprepared
But I got your back if you make a mistake, if you make a mistake

Come on sugar, don’t you leave early
I’m tired of counting myself back to sleep

.......

https://youtu.be/dICTrWgBp_U

Saturday, 7 July 2018

Shoutout to people who grew up with emotionally unsupportive parents and have to hear other people talk about how supportive their families are while you're basically guiding yourself through life .. you're strong and brave!!

Friday, 15 June 2018

Loneliness doesn't come from being alone,
It comes from feeling that nobody cares ......

Thursday, 14 June 2018

Do not ever, settle for less than your worth.. ever!

Wednesday, 13 June 2018

You did not break me
Well I've got thick skin and an elastic heart
But you won't see me fall apart
'Cause I've got an elastic heart

Monday, 11 June 2018

Could this be fixed

When you try your best but you don't succeed 
When you get what you want but not what you need 
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep 
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face 
'Cause you lose something you can't replace 
When you love someone but it goes to waste 
What could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home 
And ignite your bones 
And I will try to fix you

But high up above or down below 
When you are too in love to let it show 
Oh but if you never try you'll never know 
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home 
And ignite your bones 
And I will try to fix you

Tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
oh and tears come streaming down your face
And I

Tears streaming down your face
I promise you I will learn from all my mistakes
oh and the tears streaming down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home 
And ignite your bones 
And I will try to fix you

Friday, 30 March 2018

I jist had a sneezing session while I'm waiting for my bus, and a nice driver from a different bus stopped right next to me, and told me bless you 😅😅

I really like that some people are nice, they make some random person's day.

Friday, 19 January 2018

I have two hands, one beating heart .. and I'll be alright.. I'm gonna be alright.

Tuesday, 9 January 2018


I need someone on days like this, I do.
On days like this..

Friday, 5 January 2018

All I ever wanted was to make them proud, but i guess nothing i do will ever be to their liking unless i do it exactly by the book... Such a shame

Wednesday, 3 January 2018

I'm waiting for the train, there a guy playing the piano in the station, it's so beautiful .. can't help myself from tearing up.
I dont remember the last time I've felt this sad.

Sunday, 31 December 2017

Let's sum up the year, the good and the bad:
Good:
1. I think I'll doing well in school, i finished 2 semesters this year, with exams and all, and i admit i had plenty of help from someone, and highly appreciate it, wouldn't have done it without you.
2. I started a business, and closed it, learned so much from the experience, was crazy with stress and work and all, but I don't regret any part of it.
I'd do it again with another idea that I'm more into.
3. I traveled to an amazing place, was the most terrifying and beautiful trip of my life, stupid move in my side but at least i enjoyed it and it ended well.
4. I went back to Google, they've been treating me well, i needed the money, and the good of course, and the challenge is always a good thing. And i presented my project in the interns summit in Zurich, was a great experience.
5. I tried my best to get back to she codes, not so much a success but i did help with launching two branches for Arab women. So proud of the girl and all the work they've put up in the organization.
6. I went to Orlando for the Grace Hopper conference, was amazing!!

The bad:
1. I have never been this stressed in my life, it's not the work and not school.
2. I don't feel very healthy anymore, for unknown reasons, i blame the dress, it's killing me.
3. I have cried so much this year, more than all the times i cried when i was depressed, combined. That's alot!!
4. I feel so lonely, and unappreciated, and taken for granted from the most important people in my life.
5. I feel genuinely sad, not depressed sad, just sad. I think i lost the spark i had in my life, the energy, the love of everything, i lost what makes me .. me.
6. I have never in my life kept so much secrets, i feel like im living a double life , it's tearing me apart.
7. My hair is long, i hate it, why am I doing this??
8. And i became 27 and I'm still not in a relationship.. perfect ending for a stupid year.

And i thought 2017 was gonna be my year lol.
2018 better be better. 

Saturday, 16 December 2017

One day, I'm gonna be strong enough to leave.
One day I'm gonna wake up, feeling i can take down down the world, and I'll leave and never look back.
One day...

Sunday, 19 November 2017

Want to feel burning flames .. when you say my name!

Saturday, 21 October 2017

When you lose something you cannot replace.....

Sunday, 15 October 2017

Love me or lose me
I am not settling
for anything in between.


When you allow someone to persistently and consistently talk a good game without delivering, it’s like allowing them to bend over in your life and fart an incredible amount of hot air.