it brings joy , maybe not to eveybody , but in my case id does .. I have never considered my laptop as a source of distraction of any kind . on the contrary , I see it as a savior from everything .. from boredom , from anxiety ,
from illness and
even from cold , can you imagine
how warm a laptop can get when it is ON for 3 or 4 hours in a row , I just can't stop thinking that I will end up living a life without computers , it's like .. my , home sweet home !!
that is the reason why I decided to study computer science , it has been my passion since ever and when you feel passionate about something you would like to know everything you can about it , and you would like to explore what ever you can pertaining it .
My decision arouse million of questions around me ..
" why computers ? " ,
" what will you do for living after finishinig your studies ? " ,
" don't you think guys are more apropriate for such a feild ? " .
bla .. bla .. bla ..
all kinds of never ending comments .. it was a shock .. a dissappointment actually !!
though I did not back down , this was my desire for a long time , how can I allow this criticism - that is far away from being objective as it could be - to break my will , and extinguish my craving desire to learn and know about the passion of my life !!
I certainly will not allow that to happen , not that and not the fact that now I am more than a week behind in my studies , will be the reason for me to give up and bring this dream to an end !!
yes I am a week behind .. and maybe soon it will be two weeks , but my hands are tied , I can only sit and pray for things to turn to my side , and maybe after recieving the answer that I have been impatiently waiting for for the last 5 months , maybe just then I will start experiencing the joy of a liftime dream !!
remember the crossroads I mentioned once before , this is one .
drop the dream becuase I am a bit late behind at the moment ? ,
or take the challenge and suffer a bit and gain the sweet pleasure and result of suffering ?
I believe I have already made my choice ..
I think now it is time for me to dance in the rain :) !!