Sunday, 30 October 2011

it feels good, to finally see the people you always thought they weren't there, I've always thought I was alone, I never was.. it's just I never wanted to see what was around me, now I can.. because I want to..
I'm no longer scared.. I feel safe, even when there's a fair chance of me getting hurt, I don't mind, actually, it might give more meaning to my life.
if it's not the saddest most painful moments that made my life worthwhile, then I don't know what did!

Sunday, 23 October 2011

Life can be absolutely phenomenal, and it should be, and it will be!

Thursday, 20 October 2011

why am I feeling happy!!!
what's up with all the Ecstasy this morning.. 
don't know don't care .. I love this feeling .. I miss it :')

Monday, 10 October 2011

"It was waiting for me. Your past is always your past.
Even if you forget it, it remembers you."

Saturday, 8 October 2011

I've never needed to explain myself to anyone, I just did or said whatever I felt right and never worried about how others see me or think of me.
what has changed today, why did I feel this urge to explain everything to him? 
why does it matter to me if he think wrong or if he judges me?
today, it was a whole new territory to me. 
I so into surprises, but not the ones where I am the "surpriser"!

Friday, 7 October 2011

I really wish I could give all my secrets away, it would be really easier for me to deal with everything around me!

how can I explain to others why I do or do not want to do a certain thing!
it's just really funny and weird to them, but to me, anything but funny.. it's actually painful to be in this place, where I can't explain myself , If ell I'm back to square one, freaking ridiculous.

whatever ..

Wednesday, 5 October 2011

I can't believe I lost track of time,
it's only my second birthday, not the third..
after all, one is more than enough..
my third birthday since the incident.
two and a half years since I died.
30 months since it all began crashing down.
what to expect now from this day on, I cannot tell.
what's gone is gone, nothing comes back.. we just learn to live without the missing pieces of us.
that's what I'm trying real hard to do for the past two years.
let's just hope good for tomorrow and the days after..