Saturday, 28 January 2012

I can honestly say , you've been on my mind since I woke up today :)

Monday, 16 January 2012

" Are we talking about the anxious butterflies or the kind that seemingly stop your heart upon his entrance into the room? " :)

Sunday, 15 January 2012

if you find someone who's gone looking for himself before he can find anything, he won't be able to come home!

Thursday, 12 January 2012

it's pouring and I have no one to stand under the umbrella with me!

Saturday, 7 January 2012

I haven't been here in a long time ..
I guess it's because of what my therapist thinks.. she believes I no longer allow myself to be sad or frustrated!
she thinks I struggle to stay happy and composed all the time while I do need to feel down for a little while.
I been thinking about that since we talked about this, it's because I'm terrified at what might happen if I do allow myself to get a bit sad!

now, I want to be sad, actually I want to scream and cry and break something ..
I wanna be angry, be nostalgic and I wanna , I wanna feel a lot of things I didn't feel for a while ..
I didn't want to feel any of these feeling for I was so scared these might drag me to places I won't like, and that freaks me out , to go back there!

I miss someone, I'm mad at him as well ..
I'll never forgive him, but I want be with him and tell him I missed him , no I don't miss him, I'm just nostalgic!!
I don't know how I feel , that hasn't happened in a very long time!
guess I can act a bit confused every now and then .. it's healthy. but I MUST go back on track after a little while .. Please don't hang in there, come back to me !